Lonewolf tots ......

MY TOTS

2007-11-07T09:32:00.000-08:00

ANguISh. Pained. no love. NOt Loved .
Lonewolf is suddenly lonely. Can't reach out to someone.
Can mug. can do lab. can do FYp. but sharp pain everytime i think of him.
I promise not to think of him anymore. For the sake of my family and friends.
He is a jerk, n i shld have recognised it.
Desire to love someone again is definitely a sin.
Giving up on love is a bad idea.
dependence is suddenly so critical.
WOULD I ever be loved?
I am deranged.
How long before i recover from this senseless Shit!
I am bad. I am good. I am evil. I am an extrovert externally but internally an introvert.
WHAT e creature I am!
Does this kind of person ever exist.
This is really crazy lo.
No scientist can understand me.
the more i grow, the more i DUNKnow myself.

Be inspired !

2007-10-09T09:15:00.000-07:00

This is dedicated to my crush!!!! *LOVE*

HEART - ALONE Lyrics

Heart - Alone Lyrics
I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
you don't know how long
i have wantedto touch your lips
and hold you tightY
ou don't know how long
I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone,
alone

a rumble of chinese words....

2007-08-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

我想念去年的冬天下着雪的那一夜你给的温柔紧握的双手温暖整个寒冬失去了曾经的拥有在你离开以后带走了笑容只留下寂寞忘了幸福是什么没有你的夜特别的漆黑只能闭上双眼去感觉没有我的夜谁在你身边代替了那个从前能不能再听一次你说爱我回到还在你怀里的时候能不能让我再一次拥有曾属于我的温柔

再一次拥有
作词：Devin
作曲：Willie
演唱：龚诗嘉
龚诗嘉
-再一次拥有

This make me smile todae. I hope u do too.=)

2007-08-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

by this link on youtube... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIRZFXsbD88
I Won't Smile
hey everyone on youtube
I got a message for you
you ask why I have no facial expressions
I just don't don't don't dont
You ask why I don't smile
you ask me will you smile
oh David please just smile
you know
I won't, won't won't won't
I have a confession
I have a disease
if I smile the world will be dominated by fleas
and boogers will transform into little human beings
and crawl into your crevices and plant awesome little trees
if you can make out what I just sang
then I'll tell you what I'll smile for you in sunshine or
in rain
but you know that's impossible,
cuz I don't know what I was saying
too bad, too bad, too bad
David just smile for us don't be a retod
ok I'll smile in my next 10 seconds
with david video blog
so just wait it out for another 2 years
oh wait did you say let's make it 10 years instead?
ok
I have a confession
I have a disease
I can't smile it's who I am,
that's all I'll ever be
I'm a grouchy old prune
with stones in my chest
hey did you see my pet bird stinky
living in my home made nest?
I won't smile
I won't smile
I won't smile unless...

I think he meant that if an old cow like me ever gets to smile, he will smile too. hahaha...

chatterbox is up ! minor alterations done ..

2007-07-15T19:55:00.001-07:00

the seven whole days song can still be found on the widget on the bottom right of my page
youtube video is Another sad love song
I added in Yanru and Wenqin blog links . sorry gals . now den i manage to find time to add.
Chatterbox is up ! ppl pls tag me !!! =))
chat with me !
comment about my post or watever ^^
and yes ppl I am sensitive =o
so watch ur vulgarities haha
doing my PTS report now ..
need moral boost and booze.
bd is coming .
I want ..... haha u all make a guess bah.
me zip up til realli very near den i'll spill the beans.

new video

2007-07-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

the lyrics of the new video i posted is not here, i lazy .=p
the title is Toni Braxton (1993)Another Sad Love Song
google it my dear friends.

some lyrics to the video i posted

2007-07-15T05:46:00.000-07:00

Seven whole days
And not a word from you
Seven whole nights
I'm just about thru
I can't take it,
won't take it
Can't take it no more
I had about enough of you

You know if you knew anything about me
You woulda been much more tender
Ooh squeezin' me, caressin' me
You coulda had about anything you wanted
But you messed it up
You had to be tough
You told your friends
You had me wrapped around your finger
You were talking kinda cocky
Like you had it goin' on
All the while you knew
That things were kinda shaky
You knew that you were wrong
Dead wrong to be
Mistreating me
How can we go on

Sugar Sugar
You know if you knew anything about sweet
You woulda been talkin' to me

Everyday
Seven days a week
Baby Baby
You shoulda been givin' me
A little more time
But you were just much too busy
Abusin' me and usin' me I
woulda done about anything Ya wanted
I was there for you
I was crazy about you
When I was sittin' thinkin'
I was kinda special
You were runnin' round Hittin' every other girl in town
How could you love me
When you knew you played me funny
You knew that you were wrong
Dead wrong to be
Mistreating me
How can we go on

Deep in my heart
You were number one to start
But then you changed
You threw my heart away
Told your friends that
You were runnin' thangs
Why'd it have to be that way
You're wrong
Dead wrong
Tell me how
How can we go wrong

1 week and counting

2007-07-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

ok. bloggie. I survived for 1 week and 5 days.
without him. it's more carefree. less pain.
less lies. more sleep. but i need more time to recover.
4.5 yrs r/s gone like that.
poof. and he's outta my life.
friends say it's better now den later in the marriage .
i think so too. it's better for my kids not to get hurt.
if he's not mine. i won't fight for him back.
his new gf can wear my old shoes if she wants.
good for her and i wish them all the best.
ppl , if i don't blog, tat means a lot on the music
video side on how i really feel.
I'll pray Nam-myoho-renge-kyo Nam-myoho-renge-kyo Nam-myoho-renge-kyo.
less watching the river at clarke quay.

It is over

2007-06-23T21:53:00.000-07:00

ok officially .
ME N PATRICK BROKE UP ALREADY >
no turning back now.
gotta get on wif life n stop blaming myself n him.
no point.
hmm...
let's see who do i go out with todae?
I ran in the morning , gg out wif Zhixian in the afternoon for this Jap anime movie
, and swimming at night.
Den next week gonna catch up with tons of friends. =)
I think i gain some experience in love matters.=))
To sail next month. butterflies in my stomach.
Laser boat.=)

2 days of MC!

2007-06-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

doing my internship and loads piling on my desk , and I'm in MC! sigh.. this thing no choice lah. Health is evrything.
breathlessness, giddiness and bad sore throat and persistant cold..
Den tmr i gotta teach tuition too! sigh no rest ..
my bf's got less time for me .. i'm feeling quite down now . so lonely. actually, most of the time i am . I'm wondering how to salvage this shaky relationship.
or should i.??
Or issit that all guys are like tat after 4 years ?
Lost the flame alr. so useless.
I wanna watch fantastic 4 + nancy drew + transformers
esp NANCY DREW! i'm her fan for years.
I wonder wat is it like being filty rich.
my result not bad, through caps pulled down by 0.2
A-, B+, B+ B , B, S
gotta go rest more.

Lost~

2007-06-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

Been through a breakup and a breakdown recently, realli a bad patch .
he said he loved me .. why did he left me feeling like i'm so in the wrong ?
He patched up back with me. pretty messily in fact . Dunno how to describe it . Anyway , nowadays, my fav song is lea's song , sun and moon . so touching . Talked to Emily today, felt my life has been placed in a better perspective . I wish I knew everyone better . then they are precious alw to me . I won't be so biased. anyway , I have my online shop up and running . it is found here :
http://sparklinggifts.magix.net/website Please support ! =)
New game that I have been obsessed with [ Scions of Fate Online ]

Dear blog...

2007-04-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

I have recovered as a new Marie . But i haven got around the studying factor. I'm still as stressed as ever , 10 hours of facing the wall doing revsion for exams per day and they don't pay off most of the times. Have to settle some issues about myself before i lose the ppl closest to me . I love my family. I love my bf. and I love my best friend lee peng. and i love my godsis ,Pris. I cannot afford to lose them. maybe it is time i consider my stance. should i continue being like that ?? the song that I'm listening to now : Roadside by the band Rise Against . It's cool.

Lyrics :
Tell me what I'm s'posed to do, With all these leftover feelings of you,'Cause I don't know,And tell me how I'm s'posed to feel,When all these nightmares become real,'Cause I don't knowAnd I don't think, you see the places inside me that I find you And I don't know, how we separate the lies here from the truth And I don't know, how we woke up one day somehow thought we knew,Exactly what we're supposed to do So leave me, at the Roadside,And hang me, up and out to dry,So leave me, at the Roadside,And hang me, up and out to dry And I don't think, you see the places inside me that I find you And I don't know, how we woke up one day somehow thought we knew Exactly what we're supposed to do So leave me, at the Roadside,And hang me, up and out to dry,So leave me, at the Roadside,And hang me, up and out to dry 'Cause I don't think, you see, the places inside me that I find you And I don't know, how we woke up one day somehow thought we knew,Exactly what we're supposed to do Exactly what to do.

K gtg study why history alr. it's a super dry module but since i love history so much...................

Accident!

2007-03-07T18:33:00.000-08:00

aww. blog //.\\
I'm involved in another bus accident again , this time with my classmate Imy..

taxi collided into the bus side. taxi bow squashed like a deflated ball.

My nerves wrecked, i was late for my programming lesson . And when i reached the class it is like - no class tests paper given out yet! omygosh!

I apologized to the tutor for being late. After all, she is alw puntual and helpful and nice.

sigh.. i wish and pray that there will be lesser accidents today.

and pass my prog tests!

omigosh!

2007-01-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

I can't believe it . Poof! and the hols are over just like that. 2006 is also over.
results are ok. A+,A,B+, B, S. 4.02 cap score.
Malacca trip with my darling was a perfect liang ren shi jie.
music camp was not fun, but i did learn how to do intense hammering with my last finger.
haas.
I finished the 7th chap to my ongoing story (after a mental block of 2 months!)
in fact i took so long, my first chap was started at 2004.
go look in www.fictionpress.com/~lonewolf333333 under perceptions chapter 7.
and i have fun playing guild wars and currently I'm playing sims 2.
Moddings are fun. realli=)
I wish everyone a happy new year . And forget all the bad things I have done. I am so sorry.

an apology by the president

2006-10-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

Recently i saw this profoundly moving story about the 'manipulation' of African American for a medical study. It was very moving , and even so, I think that the nurse, Miss Evers I believe, shld resign from her post immediately once she feels something is wrong. She knows what is happening around, she just dunno the ethical/moral standards pegged to the society as a whole.
She has did a 'great' job yes, but she as a nurse should do more than that. Look at Florence Nightangle and her way of caring for her patients' wellbeing.

I'm sure Singapore nurses are a great professional team too, are caring too. How far would they step out of their boundaries? Would they know the 'line'?

Look at this apology abstract i took out of http://clinton4.nara.gov/textonly/New/Remarks/Fri/19970516-898.html:

The President, Bill Clinton :

The eight men who are survivors of the syphilis study at Tuskegee are a living link to a time not so very long ago that many Americans would prefer not to remember, but we dare not forget. It was a time when our nation failed to live up to its ideals, when our nation broke the trust with our people that is the very foundation of our democracy. It is not only in remembering that shameful past that we can make amends and repair our nation, but it is in remembering that past that we can build a better present and a better future. And without remembering it, we cannot make amends and we cannot go forward.
So today America does remember the hundreds of men used in research without their knowledge and consent. We remember them and their family members. Men who were poor and African American, without resources and with few alternatives, they believed they had found hope when they were offered free medical care by the United States Public Health Service. They were betrayed.
Medical people are supposed to help when we need care, but even once a cure was discovered, they were denied help, and they were lied to by their government. Our government is supposed to protect the rights of its citizens; their rights were trampled upon. Forty years, hundreds of men betrayed, along with their wives and children, along with the community in Macon County, Alabama, the City
of Tuskegee, the fine university there, and the larger African American community.
The United States government did something that was wrong -- deeply, profoundly, morally wrong. It was an outrage to our commitment to integrity and equality for all our citizens.
To the survivors, to the wives and family members, the children and the grandchildren, I say what you know: No power on Earth can give you back the lives lost, the pain suffered, the years of internal torment and anguish. What was done cannot be undone. But we can end the silence. We can stop turning our heads away. We can look at you in the eye and finally say on behalf of the American people, what the United States government did was shameful, and I am sorry. (Applause.)
The American people are sorry -- for the loss, for the years of hurt. You did nothing wrong, but you were grievously wronged. I apologize and I am sorry that this apology has been so long in coming. (Applause.)
....
The people who ran the study at Tuskegee diminished the stature of man by abandoning the most basic ethical precepts. They forgot their pledge to heal and repair. They had the power to heal the survivors and all the others and they did not. Today, all we can do is apologize. But you have the power, for only you -- Mr. Shaw, the others who are here, the family members who are with us in Tuskegee -- only you have the power to forgive. .....

End of abstract.

It's really something that i can look on to in terms of ethics in research. I gained a valuable insight.

i miss my blog..

2006-10-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

oh dear .. so long never update my blog le.. maybe don't have the habit of rambling on n on.
gg to my concert for performance todae. Mei you na ge qi fen lei... I miss those times 2 years ago.. hopefully we can inprove on it at music camp. I need to sell my things . Taking up too much space at home. I can't sell them. test on thurs... goodness gracious... studied but dunno what I'm studying. My house is in a bad mess now. need to clear up before flies come in. need to go now.. need my ZzZzz badly. n Mooie! I MISS U!!!!!

bought something i wanted today!

2006-09-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

I bought this artificial leather chair! I named it my farty! lol.. for my bump to sit on . CHEERS! I wanted it for so long! Looks comfy eh ? anywae, officially, Priscilla is my godsis from todae. So nice, i never have a sister before... todae the second time i tried to use my gift card to purchase psp game from a shop , it failed.. the shop haven activated the card yet .. diao .. must be fate fo me not to buy psp games..

my new most desired mouse achieved!

2006-09-07T10:32:00.000-07:00

i got this mouse on wed , all thanks to my sweet darling ! exactly this brand n model n color !
nice eh ? my next target will be my mousepad.....
i love my darling!
i miss my darling!
u know , ur proposal sounds real tempting .....
If onli i can rest my tired head on your arms ...it will be nice....
okie, enuff mushiness.
these few daes nothing much lah , juggling my
work , studies, projects and play lo...
very tiring .
juz read a book - a chinese cinderella n the secret dragon soc by Adeline .
moving , touching story . n i love the history background n chinese facts n it !
kk gotta sign off now , 133am alr ....MUACK everyone !

WOW!

2006-08-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

thanks to all my friends and relatives went for my bd celebration!

i received :
$120 worth of kino vouchers
$20 coffee bean voucher
mona lisa red wine
$30 nets gift card
$270 cash
lotsa stuff toys x 4
half jacket
guess watch
chomel watch
butcherr watch
wallet
gold n platinum n diamond jewellery
espirit towel
self knit wollen HP pouch
hp holder
large teddy bear
love charm voodoo doll
tea bags
oceanus set
encouragement sketch book
shaking head career toy
birthdae dress
soka gakkai overseas pen
t shirt
illuminator
....
woa...
so many! i try to name almost all lah ...

i am overwhelmed.
in fact , i was thrown into the pool by dear SD friends
poor new pretty dress...

I like to thank my family for organising this event for me n being patient wif all my crazy antics for these 21 years...
n to my bf ... who has stood by me unwaveringly for close to 4 years ...

I love u all ! MUACK!

met a new friend !

2006-08-08T09:26:00.000-07:00

The day before yesterday, i met a new friend who contacted me through friendster.
His name is Zhixian .
He really got lots to talk to me about.
Wow.
I find him as a nice chap.
Thank you Zhixian , for reaching out to me.

anywae i post this song for my friends and also for my bf too
hope u all enjoy it.
It's by Tracy Chapman - Baby can I hold you

pictures ! pictures! modified ones!

2006-08-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

I have 2 photos I modified here , the everquest 2 queen i used as my wallpaper, lineage 2 pic i use merely as my fanphoto pic. Both games I love ! Feel free to use and if anyone need game wallpaper services , let me know. drop me an email @ lonewolf333333@hotmail.com . Oh btw, the patch of black on the eq2 gal is used to cover as backdrop for my icons on the desktop, so when used together, it's great!

wow.

2006-07-28T00:49:00.000-07:00

interesting time has flew by and now it is gg to be the start of sch again .
watched mortuary NC 16 n nearly burned a hole into my darling's chest
He proposed engagement yesterday! aww.. how sweet . *me melting*
actually it is his mum prompting him to do so ... lol.
I'm still young. Need more time. My parents may not be able to accept him yet.
so i turned him down . darn. It HUrts man .. 2nd time engagement stuff passed thru me.
B4 it was my ex bf.
I realli do love him , but deep down inside i'm still hesitating to make this move a not.
It is like moving a pawn in a chess game . Will you sacrifice the pawn for greater gains? or will u keep the pawn for the last ?
sigh. realli messed up my life now.

birthdae list

2006-06-29T02:01:00.000-07:00

Here's the list of nos and yes: (of course , u could get me anythign other den the no list)

Nos:
Keys
Jewellery
Shit
chocolates
wallet
watches
makeup stuff
bags
strings
clothes with frills/lace (my skin is allergic)

Yess:
Coffee bean vouchers
TY teddy bears ( about the size of half of whole arm )
Vanilla stuffs (teabags etc)
Roller Coaster Tycoon 3 and expansion set
Music CDs, Cartoon anime VCDs,DVDs- weiqi(GO), (not naruto , not gundam,not inuyasha)
Red Wine/ Volka
Razor mouse and mousepad
Comic books (Marvel/DC)
Hongbao for my new hp
Ribena (lots of it for examinations)
Kino vouchers
portable hard drive (4GB)
Bodyshop Oceanus

will update it if i have more to write =)

Thanks so much Libing for your lobang ! =)

=))

2006-05-28T21:48:00.000-07:00

new video added Craig David - Unbelievable.. nice song ... he croons so lovely ... i'm happy for my results .. although din realli achieve my goal yet .. i got cap score of 3.95 ! hurray ! the results r as follows ... Con tech B+, Measurement B+, BU services B+, con law A+, Singapore Society S . hurray! yippee... can go celebrate le ... me playing everquest 2 and reading books and playing guitar .. trying to play Galop by Matteo Carcassi Op.39 No.10, my illusionist in game lvl 22 and berserker lvl 14 , and i'm reading a fastasy book -SOUL OF THE FIRE by TERRY GOODKIND .. very addictive book ... hee.. hope tat i can tuition well after all these =p

sentimental tots..

2006-05-20T00:10:00.000-07:00

yest i saw these 2 gals at harbourfront market... one gal call out .. meimei! (younger sis) and ran towards her for a hug.. the hug is so touching ... it is like so sweet! .. i realli think hugs like this is realli needed at times .. hoping someone will be like tat ... den i saw da chang jin till 314am todae .. cry and cry and cry ... gosh.. i'm being so sentimental ..

feel like the lowest being now

2006-05-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

i dunno wat to say really .. juz feel that i'm really quite useless... i need to find my niche in the market .. otherwise i'll really lose out .. realli. eq2 is a distraction from my everyday woes, but that cannot stop me from doing the mundane things for example like giving tuition ... the mum wants her son to score A ... who doesn't ? it's giving me a lot of pressure though .. now i still have to photoscap some stuffs for the boy ... gosh ... n den i can't find any other tuition work ..den i'll prob go jamming for the first time wif my friend Zaid on this coming saturday .. as a singer .. hopefully i will not mess it up since he's a great drummer .. and den i still wanna go overseas .. a lot of wishes unfulfilled.. i wish i had more time and wisdom to find out what lonewolf can realli do ...

pic pic and pic frenzy ...

2006-05-12T03:11:00.000-07:00

Presenting:

me and my ma hard work of pizza making !

my bro say it tastes not bad ..

cheeze.. carrot.. crabmeat .. ham .. dough .. tomato puree... and lots of love ! ...

some other photos were taken in australia with me , my bro and my ma and my papa.. =)

ideas ideas and ideas...

2006-05-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

i want to change my blog layout !

unwell.. and confused ..my rumblings..

2006-05-07T18:13:00.000-07:00

tired.. unwell and confused .. adequate reason for not going out ? i realli dun know.. nowadaes i playing everquest 2 and prep to start giving tuition.. argh.. i hate primary 5 science .. so much to remember . not like history in sec school.. a bit excited to go down to my secondary school for BBSS anniversary dinner.. and can see all my friends there.. juz one thing .. i dunno wat to wear omigosh ... I must thoroughly search my wardrobe already ... Everquest 2 is NICE!!! sorry to all WoW fans out there ( including me ) but the graphics and effects of everquest 2 is way better han WoW .. i think that's the reason y they increased the subscription price to S$43.73 a month... sian .. I'm playing an illusionist now ... so fun ! =) Need to rest well to recover completely from my coughing bout..and go swim / run / play badminton again... so tat i can keep up my stamina...kk.. gtg now.. logging off..

finish exam liaoz!

2006-04-29T01:12:00.000-07:00

4th paper was ok .. as usual i finished 15 mins b4 time for law paper .. 5th paper was so easy i scared of moderation sia .. n den at 3pm on saturdae 29th april after the 5th paper- last paper .. hurray!

lalalala~

time to slack .. oh ya , meeting lee peng for this peace conference thingey at ica .. i better make a move first .. from tmr onwards can recover my cough liao... slowly recover .. den taking over pris' kids for tuition ..followed by looking for a full time job.. den also accounting for the Japan trip .. woa .. after exam got so many things to do ar... o.0 omigosh..

tests, tests, and tests!

2006-04-25T10:07:00.000-07:00

3 tests down , 2 more to go , juz make sure i maintain my cap , or trying to maintain it ... 1 test was ok , 2nd test i dun even know what i'm writing about and 3rd test ? well i din finish it .. omigosh .. i studied more than the last semester but i din do as well.. oh well... pray and hope tat i will get good results despite them ...
*prays *
I miss my darling.

blogging again...

2006-04-09T01:13:00.000-07:00

if....u r ..wondering y the song has been removed, it has been replaced with a south park video ! go to one of my links and press play and u all can view it .. hopefully it will cheer u guys and gals up for the upcoming exams .. i'm also feeling very frustrated due to lack of time in studying ... well.. nothing much have been happening in my life lately .. juz wanna get thru' this piece of ^%&^ exams and can relax for 3 mths alr.. jiayou everyone .. i wish i dun haf nightmares when sleeping .. make me sleep very late at night ... den wake up so late in the morning .. den the vicious cycle goes on and on again .. hate soci .. lucky i'm not in arts .. maybe i not tat artsy enuff... I'm so in love wif MU online private server ! i'm lvl 197 dark lord now in http://www.mueurope.org/.. if u guys/gals wanna play wif me it's so kewl! =), for ppl who duno my other portal , here's it : www.fictionpress.com/~lonewolf333333 , it contains all my poems and stories uploaded. there's reviews too! ;) , feeling the urge to link some more , i got the video from http://www.youtube.com/, if u all are interested to find other videos... , recently i'm also playing a stock market game called http://www.lagoonb.com/.. it's about selling and buying to make more money...erm .. i think i'm crapping too much haha... someone mentioned my blog is too short ... so i decide to see if i can lengthen it .. but den again lonewolf is a person of a few words .. so there goes ...this signature i created... above ... 2 designs .. tell me which one looks nicer ok ?=)) logging off!

hmm.. from my friend's bloggie.. i like it too!

2006-03-24T08:58:00.001-08:00

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oh! a quiz! I rarely take quizzes!

2006-03-24T08:48:00.000-08:00

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reflective mood..

2006-03-24T07:04:00.000-08:00

saw this old guy dancing on the ice ring in Fuji ice entertainment centre todae. so carefree.. den this gal who is practising ice stunts clapping as she musterfully completed each task her coach sets out for her . den me listening to the music alone ... i realli like the atmostphere. it was ages since i relaxed. wonder- who will be there the next time round. exam coming . so much of stress. i dunno if i can keep my standards, seriously reflecting. what is my godamn forte!? so much nightmares... wish they all will go away...i wish there were more to say , but nowades i shutting my lips and words into my brain .. can't let it out... meeting lee peng for lunch tmr. Hope this will all go away...

tired,tired and more tiredness

2006-03-22T02:16:00.000-08:00

dunno y i blogging now when i have not blogged for weeks . not enuff sleep , not enuff rest , not enuff food, not enuff drinks and not enuff fun . everyday is like i forcing myself to study or to do project materials . even nearly fainted yesterday . treasurer sit in for the ad hoc comm for til july too. haven settle some treasury issues becos of my health , haven handover , damn . I feel like shit , ppl . can someone gimme a booze ?

good drinks + food shld go together..

2006-02-24T09:10:00.000-08:00

After tasting 3 types of Vanilla at 3 different places , I decided that I should enlighten others about which taste best In order of preference :

1) Essential brew Holland V : Vanilla ! <--- drink chef's recommendation (i can't realli remember the name i tink it is vanilla indulgence or vanilla latte) it has whipped ice cream on top! everytime i drink it it taste so fresh and strong vanilla! $6++ wif GST

2) Cafe Galilee Bedok library vanilla shake $4 nett sugary overdoseeee! Yum! I like SUGAR!! Economical n value for $$.

3) Dome at UCC NUS Vanilla smoothie.$6 for non NUS students. $5.10 for NUS students. Smooth, but where's the vanilla taste? SighZ

My first experience with good food on campus : Munchie Monkey outlet in NUS :spagetti with crayfish dipped in spicy tomato sauce.. $7.95 nett ..the spagetti is 10 times better than Pastamania! ( my own view) The crayfish was well cooked!

A very beary nice anniversary celebrated for me..

2006-02-13T08:03:00.000-08:00

Our lovely 3 years anniversary: 12/02/03
Gave him a 1 gz memory card for psp n also his fav game - Popolo Crios 12pm
Check in at fullerton Quay room 230pm
serving of house red wine (strong) Me n him finished half each 330pm
Took video n pictures for memories 2.30-5.30pm
Prepare spa soak of geranium with scented rose petals 530pm
relax on grand bed 7pm
In room dinner arrangement of dinner table 430pm
Presentation of 21 surprise roses in a bouquet - wif words- I'm commited to u 7.30pm
In room 4 course dinner 730pm
Highlights- Smoked salmon *yum*
crab spagetti *slurp*
Champagn Mousse *simply heaven*
Fireworks ! 15 mins outside window (singapore river) 9.30pm
Check out 11.15pm
missed the buffet breakfast though. He got work n I have impt sch lessons.My friends are all envious!I love him . My little twit wuf. aw..

tune~

2006-01-24T06:59:00.000-08:00

tidatitidatitidatitidadoo~ Handel tune of the 4th movement still stuck in my head temporary for now .. dunno how to get it out .. haa. Todae Genus time was fun . FUN!
getting a bit to the mood of studying . hope i can study tmr from 12 to 7 pm . wahaha.. long break in between my tutorial n lecture. Hope i can do something useful during tat period of time . Wanna rest now but so many cca stuff to do ! arghh! gtg do them now !Sayonara!

charmed.wahaha

2006-01-17T06:32:00.000-08:00

todae i was stuck wif a weak constitution when i woke up. Couldn't wake up for an appointment wif the ex treasurer . feel so guilty. terrible. Lecture for BU2480 was horrible too. So heavy.
after tat , I had dizziness n stomach upset, also , onset of blowing stress , decided not to attend the guitar practice.It has been a long time to go to the optometrist to fix my specs position pegs over my nose, "flirted" with the optometrist, (he is always charmed by me ever since i stepped into his shop) n got the service charge for free! last words ? "For u , free lah , never mind about it." wahaha... din know plain lonewolf emitting charm there. wahahaha...

2006-01-10T03:32:00.000-08:00

i was approached one of my friend to do singing for a birthdae party. well . i'm not too sure. really.
My voice has not been very good since i was in primary school .
I really dunno whether to accept a not.
maybe I shldn't.
Maybe I shld.
I'm now like lost n confused.
What r my strengths exactly ?
I dunno.
Until now i dunno my strengths. Gotta go reflect now.

tired depressed angry frustrusted

2006-01-03T08:40:00.000-08:00

damn angry at myself . y couldn't i do better ? y can't i get over it n get it done n over with ? Y is it that when u nearly see the light someone is out there to pull it out from ur eyes? Y? Y is it tat i have this senseless nightmares these few daes? CAN'T THEY LEAVE ME ALONE! I need love . And attention. And respect. GODDAMNIT! i just wish i can live my life the right way again. I need to get my hands on something. maybe sleep. maybe more alcohol. maybe books . I juz very damn sad i can't pull myself up wif a few courageous words. I tried to pray. Maybe i din pray hard enuff. I tried to read my mentor's guidance. It helped. But I'm like so down. maybe the black furry mini skirt I bought from C.O.A.X. n the top silk cheongsam i bought from SERIES on tue evening can cheer me up, juz a bit, juz a bit, wif my parents' praise, a bit more, a bit more.

lost n confused ..

2005-12-28T21:16:00.000-08:00

this is my results for the this sem :

BU2280
RESEARCH METHODS IN BUILDING
B-

BU2481
CONSTRUCTION TECHNOLOGY I
B

BU2482
BUILDING MATERIALS
A-

BU2484
BUILDING STRUCTURES
A

EC2101
MICROECONOMIC ANALYSIS I
B+

ES2007D
PROFESSIONAL COMMUNICATION
B+

CAP: 3.88
Yea! i improved by 0.08! gg towards my 4.0 cap score goal!

nowadeas i feel so lost n confused . esp my relationship issues.
Did i take n not give ? am I gentle enuff? am i a good enuff gf ?
I realli dunno .
Think i better consider change b4 it is to late. I may be making a wrong decision,
but at least i follow my heart instead of my mind.

a poetry i created for the brooding exams

2005-11-14T07:16:00.000-08:00

Sea
Oh! How endless it is !
Swimming through it ,
Spotting-
not even a tiny silver of the faintest light.
Muscles worn , mentally drained out .
Oh! how i wish it was just an illusion!
An illusion!

FLU Jab!

2005-11-07T07:49:00.000-08:00

dunno y i so high nowadaes, must be effect of tremendous studying and my darling pei wo by my side at night, after studies.
Miss him so much.
esp his face when he smiles,his dimples never fails to melt me =x
doing past yr papers this week, getting more higher. there's so much to do.
Have to go for a flu jab before i fly off to aust after exams. Argh. Needles . I remember the gals always like to push mi to be the first to take injection jabs from primary school. maybe becos i'm like act so cool. well yea. I do give them a ressuring feeling that it is not so painful after all. But deep down , i'm afraid.Very.
I do hope my bro can at least enter poly. *prays hard* he's taking his O's now.

Yea i'm back!

2005-11-03T07:51:00.000-08:00

hi ppl, I'm back from reality to the digital world.
Cough* Cough* yes ppl , i recovered but i'm back to coughing again .
Sigh. Recently went swimming therapy to relax my whole body.
It works . Man , I'm so tired now. Dunno what to blog . Everydae this is my routine:
9.30am to 12pm : wake up , cleanse and try to dump my brain into books.
12-6pm : hardcore studying in school
6-7pm: relax time
7-9 pm : get home and do some last min work
9- 11pm : GAME time
11pm : prepare to sleep .
Very tiring .
SOMEONE PLS HELP MI > I' DROWNING.

New blog skin ! yea!

2005-10-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

I have a new blog skin and new page . This is where i officially pen down my tots from 17 Oct 2005 onwards. =) Sayonara , Courageousmarch.