Tuesday, January 03, 2006
tired depressed angry frustrusted
damn angry at myself . y couldn't i do better ? y can't i get over it n get it done n over with ? Y is it that when u nearly see the light someone is out there to pull it out from ur eyes? Y? Y is it tat i have this senseless nightmares these few daes? CAN'T THEY LEAVE ME ALONE! I need love . And attention. And respect. GODDAMNIT! i just wish i can live my life the right way again. I need to get my hands on something. maybe sleep. maybe more alcohol. maybe books . I juz very damn sad i can't pull myself up wif a few courageous words. I tried to pray. Maybe i din pray hard enuff. I tried to read my mentor's guidance. It helped. But I'm like so down. maybe the black furry mini skirt I bought from C.O.A.X. n the top silk cheongsam i bought from SERIES on tue evening can cheer me up, juz a bit, juz a bit, wif my parents' praise, a bit more, a bit more.
Posted by cheng at 8:40 AM