Wednesday, November 07, 2007

MY TOTS

ANguISh. Pained. no love. NOt Loved .
Lonewolf is suddenly lonely. Can't reach out to someone.
Can mug. can do lab. can do FYp. but sharp pain everytime i think of him.
I promise not to think of him anymore. For the sake of my family and friends.
He is a jerk, n i shld have recognised it.
Desire to love someone again is definitely a sin.
Giving up on love is a bad idea.
dependence is suddenly so critical.
WOULD I ever be loved?
I am deranged.
How long before i recover from this senseless Shit!
I am bad. I am good. I am evil. I am an extrovert externally but internally an introvert.
WHAT e creature I am!
Does this kind of person ever exist.
This is really crazy lo.
No scientist can understand me.
the more i grow, the more i DUNKnow myself.

Posted by cheng at 9:32 AM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Be inspired !

This is dedicated to my crush!!!! *LOVE*

HEART - ALONE Lyrics

Heart - Alone Lyrics
I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
you don't know how long
i have wantedto touch your lips
and hold you tightY
ou don't know how long
I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone,
alone

Posted by cheng at 9:15 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007

a rumble of chinese words....

我想念去年的冬天下着雪的那一夜你给的温柔紧握的双手温暖整个寒冬失去了曾经的拥有在你离开以后带走了笑容只留下寂寞忘了幸福是什么没有你的夜特别的漆黑只能闭上双眼去感觉没有我的夜谁在你身边代替了那个从前能不能再听一次你说爱我回到还在你怀里的时候能不能让我再一次拥有曾属于我的温柔

再一次拥有
作词：Devin
作曲：Willie
演唱：龚诗嘉
龚诗嘉
-再一次拥有

Posted by cheng at 6:53 AM

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

This make me smile todae. I hope u do too.=)

by this link on youtube... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIRZFXsbD88
I Won't Smile
hey everyone on youtube
I got a message for you
you ask why I have no facial expressions
I just don't don't don't dont
You ask why I don't smile
you ask me will you smile
oh David please just smile
you know
I won't, won't won't won't
I have a confession
I have a disease
if I smile the world will be dominated by fleas
and boogers will transform into little human beings
and crawl into your crevices and plant awesome little trees
if you can make out what I just sang
then I'll tell you what I'll smile for you in sunshine or
in rain
but you know that's impossible,
cuz I don't know what I was saying
too bad, too bad, too bad
David just smile for us don't be a retod
ok I'll smile in my next 10 seconds
with david video blog
so just wait it out for another 2 years
oh wait did you say let's make it 10 years instead?
ok
I have a confession
I have a disease
I can't smile it's who I am,
that's all I'll ever be
I'm a grouchy old prune
with stones in my chest
hey did you see my pet bird stinky
living in my home made nest?
I won't smile
I won't smile
I won't smile unless...

I think he meant that if an old cow like me ever gets to smile, he will smile too. hahaha...

Posted by cheng at 4:59 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

chatterbox is up ! minor alterations done ..

the seven whole days song can still be found on the widget on the bottom right of my page
youtube video is Another sad love song
I added in Yanru and Wenqin blog links . sorry gals . now den i manage to find time to add.
Chatterbox is up ! ppl pls tag me !!! =))
chat with me !
comment about my post or watever ^^
and yes ppl I am sensitive =o
so watch ur vulgarities haha
doing my PTS report now ..
need moral boost and booze.
bd is coming .
I want ..... haha u all make a guess bah.
me zip up til realli very near den i'll spill the beans.

Posted by cheng at 7:55 PM

new video

the lyrics of the new video i posted is not here, i lazy .=p
the title is Toni Braxton (1993)Another Sad Love Song
google it my dear friends.

Posted by cheng at 7:41 AM

some lyrics to the video i posted

Seven whole days
And not a word from you
Seven whole nights
I'm just about thru
I can't take it,
won't take it
Can't take it no more
I had about enough of you

You know if you knew anything about me
You woulda been much more tender
Ooh squeezin' me, caressin' me
You coulda had about anything you wanted
But you messed it up
You had to be tough
You told your friends
You had me wrapped around your finger
You were talking kinda cocky
Like you had it goin' on
All the while you knew
That things were kinda shaky
You knew that you were wrong
Dead wrong to be
Mistreating me
How can we go on

Sugar Sugar
You know if you knew anything about sweet
You woulda been talkin' to me

Everyday
Seven days a week
Baby Baby
You shoulda been givin' me
A little more time
But you were just much too busy
Abusin' me and usin' me I
woulda done about anything Ya wanted
I was there for you
I was crazy about you
When I was sittin' thinkin'
I was kinda special
You were runnin' round Hittin' every other girl in town
How could you love me
When you knew you played me funny
You knew that you were wrong
Dead wrong to be
Mistreating me
How can we go on

Deep in my heart
You were number one to start
But then you changed
You threw my heart away
Told your friends that
You were runnin' thangs
Why'd it have to be that way
You're wrong
Dead wrong
Tell me how
How can we go wrong

Posted by cheng at 5:46 AM

1 week and counting

ok. bloggie. I survived for 1 week and 5 days.
without him. it's more carefree. less pain.
less lies. more sleep. but i need more time to recover.
4.5 yrs r/s gone like that.
poof. and he's outta my life.
friends say it's better now den later in the marriage .
i think so too. it's better for my kids not to get hurt.
if he's not mine. i won't fight for him back.
his new gf can wear my old shoes if she wants.
good for her and i wish them all the best.
ppl , if i don't blog, tat means a lot on the music
video side on how i really feel.
I'll pray Nam-myoho-renge-kyo Nam-myoho-renge-kyo Nam-myoho-renge-kyo.
less watching the river at clarke quay.

Posted by cheng at 5:26 AM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

It is over

ok officially .
ME N PATRICK BROKE UP ALREADY >
no turning back now.
gotta get on wif life n stop blaming myself n him.
no point.
hmm...
let's see who do i go out with todae?
I ran in the morning , gg out wif Zhixian in the afternoon for this Jap anime movie
, and swimming at night.
Den next week gonna catch up with tons of friends. =)
I think i gain some experience in love matters.=))
To sail next month. butterflies in my stomach.
Laser boat.=)

Posted by cheng at 9:53 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007

2 days of MC!

doing my internship and loads piling on my desk , and I'm in MC! sigh.. this thing no choice lah. Health is evrything.
breathlessness, giddiness and bad sore throat and persistant cold..
Den tmr i gotta teach tuition too! sigh no rest ..
my bf's got less time for me .. i'm feeling quite down now . so lonely. actually, most of the time i am . I'm wondering how to salvage this shaky relationship.
or should i.??
Or issit that all guys are like tat after 4 years ?
Lost the flame alr. so useless.
I wanna watch fantastic 4 + nancy drew + transformers
esp NANCY DREW! i'm her fan for years.
I wonder wat is it like being filty rich.
my result not bad, through caps pulled down by 0.2
A-, B+, B+ B , B, S
gotta go rest more.